Thursday, February 4, 2010

And the universe blows again...

What can I say except that this has been one hell of a week. I had to see the doctor twice to rule out scary cancer stuff this week. Riki and I haven't been getting along well because he has been hard working on fixing leaks which are beyond his ability of fixing apparently and well, now there is a new delay in getting our income tax refund to pay for the tow hitch we already put a deposit down for in anticipation of said refund.

In all of our years there has never been a problem with getting a quick refund but this year there is a delay because of a mere $90 owed from last year. When I look at the big picture it isn't such a horrible thing I suppose. I'm just growing weary of little things keeping us here just as soon as we think we can hit the road. It is almost as if divine intervention doesn't want me to ever leave the state I was born in...and well, it's kind of easy to get depressed about that.

On the upside (sort of) Riki's old employer wants to hire him for a couple of weeks to do some temporary work. This is money in the pocket and will extend unemployment which is great but the selfish side of me feels like this is one more delay in leaving and starting our journey.

The week has been filled with ups and downs and at this point I just won't believe we are getting that tow hitch installed and out of here until it actually happens.

Homeschooling was rough this week and I can understand why. I was plenty preoccupied with suspect medical issues, listening to lots of swearing outside as Riki tried to fix repairs, and just feeling sorry for myself because once again, we are stuck here. I need to stop looking at other blogs for awhile and all of the fantastic places other families are traveling to while we still haven't seen any of it. I know I sound impatient and well, my last entry was about cultivating it...boy does the universe know this is just the lesson I need right now (rolls eyes) but honestly, we initially hoped to get out around November and it has been one delay after another.

My mother reminds me of how much better it will be in the spring when the weather is warmer. Call me crazy but I long wistfully for the snowy winter wonderlands I see all of the other folks trapsing in on their blogs. You might feel the same way too if you had never seen snow before. Ellery is desperate to see snow. We kind of hoped to see some soon but I know we will see it soon enough at some point.

Anyway, I am really looking forward to a restful weekend after a pretty high strung stress fueled week. I think I'm going to have a nice big quart of premium pale ale before I retire to bed tonight. The only obligation we have tomorrow is to dump the tanks at the nearest rv park, lol. I think we can handle that.


RacingSnail said...

"It is almost as if divine intervention doesn't want me to ever leave the state I was born in...and well, it's kind of easy to get depressed about that."

If I had a dollar for every time I thought that in the last 3 years, I would be a very rich woman. Hopefully, we'll finally be leaving for good at the end of September.

I hope things start looking up soon for you and your family.

HeatherLee said...

I'm sorry about the medical worries. That is no fun. I do pray all is well.

I hope you can travel and go soon.

I have that blog thing. I've been wandering towards Waldorf and I have to stop looking at too many fantastic, perfect, peaceful Waldorfy blogs. I get this overwhelming feeling that I will never be able to do all that for my children.

Then I wake up and look around. Look at all I have done for the children. Look at how beautiful it all is.

Tan Family said...

I agree about the whole, "it will get better in the spring" thing. Once that sun comes out more, everything just seems better! Although you feel stuck for a bit, congrats on getting some paid work right now. It all happens for a reason, right? I can't wait to read more about your future adventures. They will happen! :)

Little House On Wheels said...

Racing Snail, I'm glad to know I'm not alone;)

Heather, I totally agree with you about the waldorfy blogs. I try not to get caught in that myself.

Jennifer, thank you for the encouragement, I sure hope we can make it over to your coast sometime in the spring;)